Time for a new journal, what's it been 5 months since the last update? Even though we had snow late this year I find myself so sick of it at this point. Can't wait for spring to come. I've gained some weight just sitting on my ass since there's not much outdoor activities to do in the winter.

So how's my life improved since the last journal rant I made? meh. Well there was no obstacle for me to continue on my fourth year at uni so that's ok I suppose. I haven't had much to do since January when our official courses ended. Me and a few friends tried to enlist on a E-design course that was hosted by the arts academy but got kicked out since it was full and arts academy students had priority over us even though we had enlisted on the course system and they hadn't. Next thing in line is a failed Math course that will begin on May 27th. Not looking forward to it. Trying to find something extra but those are scarse.

Did I mention that the first 3 guys from my class graduated on December 2011? Just makes you feel great about your own studies that are in a standstill. Extra year for me wooo. Still missing a few points and topic for my final thesis. Oh and about the title of this journal... I couldn't find a more suitable word to describe my situation. I'm still missing that internship so I can't apply for jobs since I don't want to accept one and then quit it on the next week if an internship place pops up. So I sit here gazing out of the window as people live their daily lives. Invisible.

Haven't been on Facebook in 6 months, life is a lot more drama free without it. I always hated reading how awesome weekend people had and being asked "why weren't you at XX? it was the best" afterwards when I spent a quiet weekend wondering what everyone was up to.

What to do with life? Do I even want the job I've been studying for?